since i was a little girl
i have loved small things.
i was a kid who liked to make hidey holes under tables
or indoor tents or
to slide under my bed and examine the
geometry of black metal spiraling springs
likely singing songs all the while.
puff the magic dragon.
this little thing i found in maine has a big job.
it's a bladder of some sort
once connected to a seaweed
providing a mechanism for flotation.
i need some of that right now,
for autumn has brought me down under
deep into, saddened.
the election madness may have something to do with it.
but i am struggling this autumn.
i know that struggle is a place for growth
soil grows so well after it's been plowed and raked.
it's not so comfortable
if you think of the worm's take on it all!
so i've been putting in time substitute teaching
also making plans and books and poems.
not much of it all, really,
but moving, some,
knowing the snow is coming.
my neighbor's place loves sunset light.
cows think their cow thoughts
bovine richness so different from my worries.
the big sky here reassures me that change is constant:
that light spot in the clouds a crescent moon,
sunset light seems refracted
drawn as they are by mother earth,
who also struggles against the machinery of rich men.
i come back to
the tiny engineering brilliance
of a flotation device.
enough of these could balloon me up and up.
or, at least,
lift my heart.